Seek conflict for it's own sake. You must convince yourself that any refusal to eat your special raisin bread cookies is a life-threatening insult or else verily you are already dead.
When the New Order comes it shall truly be the greatest day of life. Not that you were ever with them, of course not. Still the look on your neighbors faces, after year upon year of laughing while you stockpiled on guns and sardines and now forced to knock on your door beging for your help. You'll give them your help alright. for you are a rightous man. Still the pleasure of it. By God it will be so wonderful. You realize now that your honeymoon sex with that whore of an ex wife was only a plae echo of the glory to come.
What it comes down to see is work ethic and love. Love what you do more than you love your children and love the great men who made your work possible more than yourself. Amen but verily all else must flow from that. Love your lot in life and become your work as an act of war then amen but the answers must surely come. God bless.