At work Today

I tore out ninety inches worth of old degraded caulk and inserted new caulk in it's place. 

I hacked the old caulk loose with a hammer and axe head and then ripped it off in one large jerk.  Then I hacked away the leftover shreds of old caulk with a boxcutter. 

When my new caulk proved  too thick to fit in the crack I sliced some of its length away with a young trowel. 

In the end it took me about an hour and a half to change caulks.  It's a simple job but hotter and heavier than you'd think. 

I Somehow Just Heard About This Yesterday

Mari Pesek graduated from NU a few years after me,  girlfriend to a good buddy of mine for several months and personal friend to myself as well. She was brilliant and sweet and the fact that's she's dead at 25 is a fucking disgrace.  It was an accident.  I'm not condemning anyone on this and would never think to do so.  I'm saying that the fact such a thing is physically possible in this universe is a fucking disgrace.  I'm saying that any universe where such a thing ever happens is a fucking disgrace. 

"Fuck death" ain't no motherfucking flip you see.  It's all there is.  When I state this formula I mean to say that being alive is being at war.  I mean that being alive is in itself an act of defiance.  It is an act of solidarity with those who have been taken and protest against there loss.  Natural means nothing and every death is unjust and 'pointless', is what I mean.  I mean that there's no need for humans to seek tribal drama and struggle against each other. We are all romantic underdogs in the war against death whether we choose it or not.  We will of course lose, but not until we lose hard, not until we make death pay for the pain it caused us in life and the pain it brings to those who survive us.  Fuck death is everything, is what I mean to say.  Fuck death. 

FC top 10

1. Bayern Munich
2. Barcelona
3. Dortmund
4. Arsenal
5. Paris St. Germain
6. Roma
7. Atletico Madrid
8. Juventus
9. Cruzeiro
10. Porto

I think this might be the same as last week.  too lazy to check.

Popular Advise to GOP Aspirant for Governor of Texas

 "A free one way bus ticket to commiefornia for all the libs. Send em home and hope they stay."

"How about making people pass an iq test before they can move here from another state, and    
especially before they can vote."

"Find a way to remove Federal 'Ownership' or Oversight from all the National Forests, Parks, etc, Federal buildings, and ANYTHING controlled by the Federal Government. They are PURE EVIL and nobody i know wants them and their tyrannic behavior inside the boundaries of the State of Texas. There is, in the fine print, rules that give the States rights over federal "property" when the feds shut down and can't do their jobs. Ill be DAMNED if they try to keep me out of any land owned by THE PEOPLE. Washington is a government AGAINST THE PEOPLE. We are STUPID not to draw ANOTHER line in the sand bigger than the Alamo, and Guard it like never before. Obama is PURE EVIL. He should not even be allowed in our State. If i can help, you just let me know."

"Start treating loberals like Coyote's."

"Wendy Davis will Rot in Hell. Baby killing atheist bitch."

"Take a look at the child support you mother fucker. Then you can have my vote you bitch"

"Dump Obama the Treasonous and the US and become an independent country"

"Expell muslims and illegals and close the border behind them!"

"Round up all the muslims and move them to mexico. Along with the illegal's"

Hmm....

 

As I've Said Before

The original purpose of school sponsored dancers, the reason that such things are or ever have been, is to indoctrinate conventional gender roles.  One can not honestly do so and than blush when boys and girls start dancing a little bit freaky with each other.  Somewhere in this world there may be a dance that pantomimes getting married in a Presbyterian chuch immediately after college and then signing the child you named after Grandpa up for Boy scouts.  I don't know.  But the fact remains that most forms of dance are, have been, and ever shall be ritualized sex charades.  It isn't something unheard of before kids these days and y'all know this as well as I do. 

Tales From Around North Platte

I'm nowhere near old enough to "remember" Charlie Simants' murder of an entire family in the Village of Sutherland., 15 miles west of the rail yards and about twenty from the center of North Platte proper. I was in fact a reverse toddler.  But I do remember how the events sort of hung over the greater community in my childhood.  I remember the tales of snipers being placed on the downtown roofs to protect Simants from vigilantes while he marched across the town's main street from jail to court. (A security problem for all rule-breakers great and small that wasn't relieved until last year.)  I remember hearing the rumors of how Simants was part of a larger network of satanic or whatnot assassins who would terrorize the greater population shortly.  I remember hearing in both high school and college about the absurd attempt to place a media "gag order" on a public trial in a small town, one where the massacre was naturally the main subject of all conversations.  I'm not sure how I feel about this World-Herald story though; I mean, I don't think that Simants should be released until maybe he's on his last legs and completely enfeebled, but I'm really not all that concerned that's going to happen here.  Maybe I'll be proven wrong, but I suspect this story was written to cater to a 'tougher than thou' crowd that desperately wants to believe that everyone but themselves are intolerably soft on crime and will lap up any information that tells them so.  Simants, almost certainly, will remain locked up. 

FC top 10

1. Bayern Munich
2. Barcelona
3. Dortmund
4. Arsenal
5. Paris St. Germain
6. AS Roma
7. Atletico Madrid
8. Jeventus
9. Cruzeiro
10. Porto 

I Saw Christmas Shit Up at Home Depot Earlier this Week

Christmas fucking sucks.  Yeah I said it.  Not the weather, I can deal with cold.  I mean the entire ritual of insipid "joyful' music and energy sucking gaudy ass blinking shit on everyone's house and worst of all the way that the 'Christmas season' perceptually shortens life with the way it keeps creeping into a longer and longer time frame.  When I say fuck Christmas I don't mean fuck the commercialism in favor of the 'spirit'.  I mean fuck the commercialism and the spirit. Fuck the lucre sure but fuck God and fuck love too. Fuck Christmas.  Motherfuck Christmas to the fuck.  I'm going to Chicago on New Year's Eve to see Cheech&Chong along with WAR.  That's where it's at.

  

I Strive to Respect All Peoples and Cultures Without Condition.

I never would have dreamed of strutting about Mexico like an entitled Brahman among the primitives.  Never would have....

Oscar Hijuelos Died Younger Than Cesar Castillo

And that just fucking sucks.  Hijuelos' prose was zestful and perceptive.  RIP Cubano. 

 

Odd Second Sleep Wine Dream

I and some other Sp ce friends of mine travelled to Kearney, Ne for some sort of writerly business.  In my dream it was, for the most part, the actual Kearney, with small college campus laced with canals, yards, houses and streets as broad as those who laid this prairie town had absolute freedom to make them.  It was if anything a little bit 'too' real Kearney though that's a trifle.  The main thing is that there was some sort of tram-shuttle thing that moved at like a hundred miles an hour which I personally controlled with my mind.  It would shimmy, rise and dip on my half-conscious whims and several of my friends were tumbled out onto the ground by the twists of this machine.  They all turned out fine though I think. 

Sunday Reflection

I'm currently living in the neighborhood of 'Clinton', Lincoln, Ne.  It's a glorious place.  White, Black and immigrant all drinking together, negotiating over mowing duties or an overly gaudy lawn sculpture etc.  This is my my hood in my American ass motherfucking city and it's fucking beautiful.  I'm a little bit tipsy from a meeting with some Mexican roofers and the 49'ers won today.  Soon I will walk to O'Rourke's for a cheap but more than palatable bloody mary.  Life is fucking magnif. 

'Krokodil' Is Indeed Nasty Shit.

You shouldn't do Krokodil.  You should really seek to avoid becoming addicted to any opiate or opiate accessory if it's within your power to do so.  I'm not going to tell you what's best for you but that really is what's best for you. 

I'm very skeptical however about CNN's assertion that krokodil is 'gaining popularity' in the US.  Such a thing is always declared about a 'new' drug and this rarely turns out to actually be the case.  I remember how during the first 1990's wave of ecstasy the drug was portrayed as some sort of ultra-dehydrating cocaheroin superkiller, or more recent rumors about shit-gas drug 'jenkum' spreading here from Africa to 'gain popularity' among our kids when really there have never been any Africans doing such a jack-assed thing either.  (Africa does have its own local equivalents of MD 20/20 etc people.  There's poverty there sure but not fantastic alien poverty from beyond the mists of time.  Yeesh.)   And finally I most certainly remember sitting in school and having it taught to me as fact that crack-cocaine was something like 130 times stronger than the rich WASP friendly powder form. 

There are some people who simply want to believe that bad drug habits, and public morals in general, are forever on a irrevocable downward slide and that people these days are at the lowest we have ever been until tomorrow.  Mass media have often been bizarrely willing to tell these doomsayers what they want to hear , especially in regards to the class-shaming sex appeal of street drug addiction,

Anyways, happy Friday. 

Erudite :)

Unlovliness Here in Nebraska

A sixteen year-old girl has been ordered to bear a child against her will,  in rather clear violation of the Constitution, (Yes that's right.  Ownership of self is an easily deduced underlying principle behind the Bill of rights) She's in foster care you see; with, one can be assured, all the official state labeling as lesser and deviant that already comes with that.  And since Nebraska law requires minors to gain parental consent before an abortion*, the state has claimed, and the normally rational state supreme court has agreed, that it itself is the girl's legal parent and therefore has the right to forbid her from seeking her own medical care as she sees fit. 

Nebraska is, due to a nominally nonpartisan legislature and other factors, not quite so theatrically more conservative-than-thou as other GOP-leaning states.  But it most definitely is more anti-abortion than though, and not the least bit above playing the same sort of dishonest and childish legal games as say Texas or Kansas in order to make those dirty tramps suffer for it. 

Ladies and gentlemen, we have the technology.  We have had the knowledge to separate sex from pregnancy for a long time now and that cat ain't never going back in the bag. The days of using the specter of accidental pregnancy to enforce (exaggerated, protest-too-much) traditional gender roles are dying and soon to be gone forever.  And in the end it will be just as good for you as the oppressed women you grind under your heal to accept that. 



(*since of course parents have the right to know if they're being denied the grandchildren that everyone knows they are entitled to. And as for this law being used to cover up incestuous rape; well that's only a problem for those dirty other people; back east, not for Us.)  

FC top 10

1. Bayern Munich
2. Barcelona
3. Dortmund
4. Arsenal
5. Juventus
6. Paris St. Germain
7. Atletico Madrid
8. Napoli
9. Cruzeiro
10. Porto

So, same as last week in other words.  Yep.  Waisting everybody's time there. 


In interesting news, General Giap was still alive until Friday.  I'm not going to get into my own views on Vietnam or the domestic era around it here.  It's mostly for the good that Baby-Boomer dominance and the corresponding tendency to view all things through the filter of those times is on its way out.  Still I do know the history and of course I know who Giap was.  One hundred and two years old.  That's a real thing.  That actually happened.  Damn. 

Ahh: the Soft Bigotry of Grumpy old White Suburbanites.

I'm the son of a single mother, Chris, the two of us in the very same lives and skin have been both welfare-dependent and part of a 'traditional' church-going, nuclear married family both alike.  We are all white as cooked sauerkraut by the way.  I know you didn't mention that specifically but; yes you did, and I am the only person in the family with enough South Omaha Spanglish to communicate with someone who doesn't speak book English. 

And me, I read the newspaper anyway.  expense compels me to read the Sunday NYT online but otherwise I get my hands on the actual paper whenever I get the chance. Blogger though I am I actually do loathe the decline of traditional journalism as much as you do; still it's bizarre to claim that financing your paycheck is a sign of good moral character , and your assertion that it's caused by people these days being inherently less moral, less respectable, more 'ghetto' than we used to be is simply bullshit.  You seem to be in the habit of thinking about Those People on the other side of the tracks a bit too much. Because you are most definitely  overestimating our power to influence events.